I'm a "do-it-all."You may be wondering what that means. The definition for the label that I just made up would mean that I never ask for help and try to do everything myself.
I have often wondered why I am like this. The only conclusion I can come u with is that I feel as though I can't rely on people. I know what you may be thinking - "Wow this girl is arrogant!" I know for a fact I'm not the best at most things and if you truly know me, I mean TRULY, you will know that I am far from perfect.
I believe this has all stemmed from people letting me down. Too many times people have said they were going to do something and not followed through, therefore rather than depend upon more people (who could also potentially not follow through), I prefer to do it myself to ensure that the job gets done.
Another reason behind this could be because I favor my dad an awful lot. He is a workaholic who always has to be doing something and knows how to stretch a dollar. Whenever my dad tries to teach someone how to do something, he usually ends up doing it himself, which is unfortunately a trap I fall into as well.
Honestly, it never even crosses my mind to ask for help with things. This is probably because I'm so used to doing things all by myself. It is easy for this attitude to carry over into my spiritual life as well. My life is sort of like a soap opera and I have problems that I encounter every day. What do I do about these problems? I think about them all day long! I often don't even think about praying about certain issues because I convince myself that it is MY problem that I have to solve.
The Bible says we shouldn't be anxious about anything, but that we should pray about EVERYTHING. If only I could remember this! Recently, God has been revealing His power to me. God is bigger than every issue that arises.
Last summer, my car got broken into and the person took my wedding set and pearl earrings (it's a complicated story as to why those were in my glove compartment). Shortly after that, I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl and had to stay home with her each day in the same house that has the driveway that my car was parked in when my car got broken into. Many fears flooded my mind and I immediately started thinking of safety precautions that we should take just in case we had a repeat offender. I considered things like motion lights and an alarm system. I used to allow fear to overtake me to where I had a hard time sleeping at night, with thoughts of someone breaking into my house and harming my child.
I felt like God spoke to me and told me "Daphne, I'm bigger than an alarm system or motion lights." This is so true. God can offer more protection than even the highest security alarm system. I was reminded of this concept today as I was praying about another one of my daily issues. God is so much bigger than any measley problem we have. I am making a diligent attempt to truly "pray about everything" instead of trying to solve all of my own problems. Regardless of how many people let me down, I know that there is always going to be One who will never let me down and with Him
I don't have to be a "do-it-all."
